Week five! Welcome! I've also been vlogging every day on tiktok so we're on...day 26. Vlogging and blogging and posting oh my. Beginning of the week was really a lot better for me, but vday unfortunately brought me right back to like week 1 depressive-state for a solid 2 days. Sickening. But we continue.
biggg 70s/masculine/workwear vibes this week. I don't know what came over me! probably largely because that it my music taste and I had to wear blazers Monday and Tuesday for Westminster coverage. We were going strong but I think I crashed out sometime on Friday. But nevertheless, we persisted, I guess.
Monday - 1201
Hooray 1200+ club! Westminster Day 1 (sort of, first day of the dog shows - I covered the sports over the weekend). Blazers required, but I liked day 2's look better. I wonder if I added a belt if I would've liked this more. I think the silhouette of the pants is throwing my off, still tbd.
Deets:
blazer: thrifted Ann Taylor from MyUnique Thrift. One of my first thrifts in college:)
turtleneck: Old Navy
pants: JustFab
shoes: DSW
necklace: vintage Zandra and Chloe
Tuesday - 1202
Westminster Day 2 :D I loveeedddd my outfit this day. And the DJ at Westminster continued to play disco music which was sick. This is my longest day of work of the year, so I took like a nap essentially and woke up at 3.
Deets:
blazer: thrifted from Racks Valley Boutique
buttondown: JustFab
necklace: vintage
sweatervest: hm
pants: TJMaxx
earrings: Buffalo Exchange
boots: JustFab
Wednesday - 1203
Again, napped for sleep, so it was a long day and I was a little grumpy, but overall feeling very :D about my job and stuff. Went home Wednesday night and got to hang with my parents and my dog :)
Deets:
shirt: thrifted at Plato's Closet
vest: old f21
pants: Uniqlo
loafers: TJMaxx
Thursday - 1204
my favorite sweater ever.
Deets:
sweater: vintage from Ebay
skirt: Target
Boots: my mom's, they're sleeeek
Friday - 1205
Today was Valentine's Day. Genuinely, normally, I don't mind vday; I've been single for the past six Valentine's Days. Ouch? I didn't realize that until I did the math. And I love my life, but coming out of a relationship just shy of a month ago, this one was pretty tough. So I got dressed in my mom's vintage heels (my favorites) and just kept going. Most importantly though, it was my childhood dog Millie's 15th (!!) birthday.
Deets:
top: JLo's brand via Walmart - probably one of the best/most flattering shirts I own
skirt: my mom's
heels: the cutiest vintage heels! my mom's also
Saturday - 1206
Quick little outfit, I thought I had this sweater in New York (like I planned to wear this outfit on Wednesday) but turns out it is in New Jersey! So here is this very casual, comfy outfit. Purple! Ruffles!
Deets:
sweater: v old Target
pants: Uniqlo
boots: old Target
Sunday - 1207
It's been hugely a pajama Saturday and Sunday, but I did get dressed to go for a little run. That was all I could do that unforch.
Deets:
fleece: secondhand, North Face
Pants: my mom got them for me for xmas!
Shoes: asics babeyyy
hat: NYRR volunteering
Updates
Things are so incredibly weird this week. I really thought things were getting better in the beginning of this week but depression and grief does not work that way. Really big work week, really weird emotional week towards the end. Running helped though - I know they say it does but it's annoying when they're right! I was motivated (semi) because I remembered I have a race next Saturday and would like it to not be terrible.
Work has been great - I feel like that (dog journalism) is pretty separate from what I do here but. Nevertheless, it was good vibes.
I was reading The Haunting of Hill House, and somehow lost my copy, probably in the depression pit that is currently my apartment.
One Day
by David Nicholls
Well it was a good swap (I suppose) because I started reading One Day (huge ouch) which I left at my parents house the last time I was there. I was upset, you may remember, because I really wanted to read it, and guess what? It doesn't hurt any less :D
here's a random deep cut
this time
and what if I don't want to confess that it's me
what if I don't want to be honest
and admit to myself
that the mistakes I made at 26
are the same ones I made at 22
at 18
at 16
just hoping it'll be different this time
can't it just be different this time
Music
I have not listened to a lot of music this week, which is weird for me, but I guess it all just...continues to be weird! I guess all I can hope is that things will get less weird over time. I dunno. But my dad and I watched a bunch of MTV Unpluggeds and Tiny Desks on evening so some good tunes. Also two of my favs (Sabrina and Tucker) released deluxes and I didn't listen to them much (that'll be an office thing next week) but I LOVED. Heart broken all over again !!
Melissa Etheridge: If I Wanted To
This was a CD in my mom's car growing up, and to my surprise, I knew every word of her MTV Unplugged. All such fire tunes, bro.
ROLE MODEL: Some Protector
:(
Sabrina Carpenter: Bad Reviews
"I can't lose another boy that's not even my boyfriend" HUMBLED me deeply
Kendrick Lamar: man at the garden
Monday had me on an extreme Kendrick kick (obviously)
Jack Harlow: Set You Free
but I know I need to
Ins/Outs
In this week is taking care of yourself and doing things you know will make you feel better. Getting dressed, running, petting your cat.
Out is comparing your journey to other people's journeys. Yes, this is about Valentines Day. But also a lot of things honestly, I've been feeling very strange and weirdly insecure about literally everything, so it's been weird. I'm on my path though so I've just been trying to be on social media less.
Snacks
My mom made a delicious chocolate cake and I've been thinking about that all week. And eating a lot of it.
Fixation
I got nothing this week, sorry. Just gonna keep moving forward.
Picture of my Cat
As promised:
Thanks for reading, see you next week :)
♡♡♡
Mel
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